Ambiguous Vindication

Not Bothering

cardboardtubeknight — Fri, 20 Jan 2012 06:30:07 +0000

I’m not running the rat race with women anymore. I’ve put in enough time and effort trying to talk to girls I was generally interested in thinking that it actually meant something. It doesn’t.

So I don’t feel like its worth the effort chasing after this shit anymore when there are much easier goals to attain that don’t rely on someone else’s feelings and other bullshit being in tune and them having some level of sanity. Not really going to bother with anyone who’s wanting me to work to be with them or work to gain their attention initially.

Trust me, you’re not as special as you think.

SOPA

cardboardtubeknight — Tue, 17 Jan 2012 18:52:02 +0000

To protest SOPA this blog and others on wordpress will be temporarily off line.

More Trouble Than Its Worse

cardboardtubeknight — Mon, 16 Jan 2012 22:38:37 +0000

If women like confidence then why do I know so many gorgeous women with pathetically jealous boyfriends who won’t let them do anything. I don’t even want to actually deal with these people anymore considering that everything offends their weak-willed, under confident boyfriends.

My Photos So Far

cardboardtubeknight — Fri, 13 Jan 2012 10:46:43 +0000

This is my gallery for anyone looking at this. It’s all work safe.

Flickr

Writing Binge

cardboardtubeknight — Wed, 11 Jan 2012 22:28:56 +0000

I’ve been on a writing binge while my ear is getting better. Two days ago I couldn’t hear and now I’m actually able to hear out of the left side again. The right side is seemingly fine. It’s always the same ear too! Which I really don’t get but whatever.

As for what I’ve been writing. Short answer is not what I’m supposed to be writing. I did some fan fictions and I am finishing up one of my longer fics now. There’ll be links below.

Devil on the Isle of Dogs – My first big Sherlock fic, its pretty much centered on Molly and it features a cameo by Holly and Lewis.

Danger Night – more Molly/Sherlock pairing dribble.

Driver – Sherlock gives Molly a birthday gift, though this one was just smut for the sake of it.

The Next Great Adventure – a kind of general story featuring Sherlock and my character Dee.

These are just the completed or near completed works.

Probably Not That Surprising

cardboardtubeknight — Fri, 06 Jan 2012 07:25:23 +0000

I’m constantly surprised by how far some men will go to get the attention of all the women around them. I’m even more shocked by how many women give it to them, knowing that this guy is currently involved with someone else.

And when the guy sleeps with a girl and calls her a slut to his male and female friends, I like how nothing is said about his behavior and how the fact that he cheated is never the issue.

Sorry, I’m watching this cycle at work and what’s most frustrating is that its effecting me, the noise, the arguing, the little BS going on around me and I can’t move because we only have so many places to sit and all of them are around this bullshit.

Forums

cardboardtubeknight — Thu, 29 Dec 2011 04:34:04 +0000

Coming home from work at this time feels weird. But I felt I needed to post something here just because I have been thinking it. I spent a lot of my time on forums a while back, one forum in particular and these days it just feels like a waste to even log in most of the time. I rarely if ever feel like the things these people are saying interest me and the little things I do still like to do there are so few that I can handle them simply by hitting the place up once a week.

Not that I am shunning forums all together, the Canon Camera photography boards and the Something Awful writers forum have been very helpful to me in finding people with whom to get tips from and share ideas.

If not for my time on forums though I wouldn’t have met some of my very favorite people. At the same time I think the relationship between me and forums is coming to a close.

Other Projects

cardboardtubeknight — Tue, 27 Dec 2011 09:49:45 +0000

I’ve been working on some things: besides the novel and the fan fiction. Probably the biggest two are a second story with a different cast and my photography.

The other story doesn’t have a name but its got a plot outlined. It’s about a girl who dies but continues to live a kind of half life in her body. The Angel of Death gives her a second chance, but is unable to repair damage done to her soul so he patches her soul with that of her sister who also died. Her being dead and her sister being a vengeful spirit who wrestles control from her on occasion is supposed to make for interesting situations. Rounding out the cast is a necromancer/best friend, a vampire and a police officer who turns caretaker to the girl.

And then there is the photography thing, this development has been taking center stage a lot and rightfully so. The big thing I had planned that went off pretty well was my Doctor Who shoot, featuring a friend from work as the Doctor. (A fictional female Doctor)

Forced Hand

cardboardtubeknight — Fri, 23 Dec 2011 18:45:43 +0000

I was trying to decide what to do, but I think my hand is being forced…

365 Days of Summer

cardboardtubeknight — Fri, 23 Dec 2011 08:21:53 +0000

My mind has been in overdrive these last few days and I’m struggling to figure out what course of action to take about this situation with a woman at work I shouldn’t be dating but can’t get out of my head.

I’ve been thinking about some other things too, like how I kind of want to try something my friend Kara did. Now we all know how I feel about New Year’s Resolutions but hear me out.

I want to try and take a photo everyday for a year. Not of me, just of anything or anyone. I think it would be a fun project and it doesn’t have to be with my big camera. I might even make a blog or something and post the images there. I think that would challenge me to keep up with something and actually get out and do more with cameras and my camera.

So I’m doing it, starting on the first of the year.